Friday, July 9, 2010

The Last of My Worries

Okay, well maybe not the last of them, but it was a BIG burden lifted off my shoulders. Yesterday was the day that I finally told my boss that I was leaving. I'm not great at quitting jobs. Usually I just move to another city so that I don't have to disappoint my boss by telling them I'm leaving. I think it would be easier if I had mean bosses. But I've always been very, very blessed to have amazing bosses whom I've loved working for! And no, I'm not just saying that because 80% of my old bosses are probably reading this post right now. I really have had some amazing people to learn from in my working careers. Any way, yesterday was the big day.

Let's start the day before the big day when the president of the college announced a hiring freeze due to budget cuts and sent the entire office into a small panic. Myself included. I hate leaving people in rough positions and I was already planning to leave right before the busiest time of the year, and now they might not be able to afford to replace me?! Luckily my friend Joe pointed out that my position was a full-time very important position and would not be a part of the freeze. Good news for my conscience. After this conversation, boss talked to me about my hours during August, how it was going to be very busy, and we would probably not be allowed to hire our part-time worker now that there is a hiring freeze. *Que the guilt!* I felt awful, but I couldn't tell her right then and there. I wasn't mentally prepared. So I would tell her the next day which was yesterday.

The morning was okay. I tried to seem as normal as possible. However, all I could think about was having to fess up that I was leaving and how awful I was going to feel,and how they would probably hate me since I was leaving them in their time of need. This is traumatic stuff for a girl who's always been more afraid to "disappoint" people than to simply make them "angry." **Even when I was little if my Momma or Daddy told me they were disappointed in me it would break my heart and I was sure they'd never be happy with me again.** As the day drug on(I mean the minutes were like hours) the nervousness became worse. I was making bathroom trips every 15 minutes and sweating even though my cubicle was so cold I had permanent goosebumps. So finally it was time, 4:25. Just enough time to tell my boss, tell my co-worker, and gather my things to jet out of there for the weekend so they could discuss me after I was gone! I went into my boss' office, closed the door and was immediately warned with, "Rachel, if you got another job, I'm so going to kill you," (obviously in a joking manner). I dropped my bright red face into my hands and my very well planned out script for this moment and converstaion went out the window and instead I blurted out, "I got a job in Italy!"

The rest of the conversation was great. My boss, being the awesome person that she is, was thrilled for me. She seriously could not have been happier. She was sad to see me go, but understood. She guaranteed me that she was not mad, and that she was happy for all the work I had done while I was with them. My co-worker had the same reaction and was really sad to see me leave. They both asked if they could come with me! I will miss them and ALL my friends at my previous job. I appreciate greatly all they have done for me in the past year as I stuggled with a new job and a new atomsophere.

So now that the cat is out of the bag, I can speak freely and just plain be excited about my trip. I'm going to learn so much and see so many beautiful things! I can't even fathom right now how amazing this is going to be.


  1. YAY for Italy! It's so fun to read your story because I feel like I lived it with you. I did notice you had to go to the bathroom a lot more than you usually do. GOSH! What fun! I am super excited for you too.....It will be a very dark day for me at OTC when you leave.......


  2. Connect Four! Well played, Wever. Well played indeed. :)

  3. I feel for you! I have all those same fears and know how awful it feels, but you did it!! You are such an adventurous spirit.....I cannot relate to that. I really envy you that aspect of your personality. How wonderful to have the experiences you sought out. Go get 'em girl!!! It's going to be a terrific adventure and knowing will be a great one.